Hazlekin

halo?

everytime I answer the phone in spanish I can tell that the person on the other line is confused and doesn’t know how to proceed -This is how I amuse my self. -lisa

My mother does not understand my quiet nature, she wants me to talk all the time telling her about my day and what I feel. I cant find it necessary to fill every minute with words that are meaningless. I try to explain that Im not a talkative person and that she should have figured this out before I ever did but she gets exasperated and leaves the room. I really have no other way to explain that I have nothing to say. everything I’ve ever needed to say is written down and left alone. I go on to listen to music and read and its like she cant stand the quiet that emits from within my room. what am i to do i wonder. -lisa

wishful thinking

I lay in bed with you and all is quiet, I know you are not asleep because you keep shifting your leg. I wonder what you think about when your with me. Are you thinking of her? of how she spoke her words and lyrics in your direction? Yes I suppose I should be patient while you forget, but I feel the loneliest person when you are on those trips and when Im home washing your clothes smelling your scent in every room. I hold you tight everytime you come home hoping you wont ever leave again (wishful thinking) I guess. I find you alone with my best dress on and after a million years I find your hands, your kiss and your hugs. I know you dont feel anything at all, none of those smiles are meant for me and yet I live for them. thanks for the opportunity to be handsome and become handsome with you. But this last kiss means never again and this handshake means goodbye. With a heavy heart I wish for the last time that I was made of ice.

-lisa

I thought i had lost my keys, turns out my mom had them all the while i was having a heart attack in the house. she was watering the plants outside. she looked lovely today. Im sitting in the lobby waiting for class to start now, although i have cramps:(

Im getting my advil out, have a good day -lisa

Sunset

whiteleeaaf:

I remember standing at the edge
Of a cliff to the sea, where a gull
Sweeps through the sky like a star
Falling from the blindness of night.
It’s like I’m trying to get to Heaven
In a hurry, the wind blowing on my
Neck, the sea roaring it’s salt beds
Of pure justice on my catharsis. 

amazing :)

when the moon is out.

I was lost out in the dark

Looking for an answer to the many questions lurking in my mind

 I found the moon out dosing by the sycamore tree,

 Surprised, to see it so plainly about

No makeup of glow of any kind

No majestic smolder of beauty

Just plain moon light that faded in and out as it

Took its sleeping breathe

I did not wake the moon, wanting that moment to last

My lover found me contemplating every other planet in our universe

hiding behind the moons echo

Hoping to someday dance without judgment of any kind

 He carried me home

Wrapped in his mantle of sheltered dreams.

:)

went to see the Hunger games with my sister, awesom movie! I tottally recomend it to anyone. I loved the characters they were amazing. cant wait for the next one -lisa